I am learning how to see myself as I am. As someone who has an angelic and devilish side. I am learning how to look at the angel and the devil in me right in their eyes and come to terms with the extents that they can go. Oh, I am learning how to look at this devil and fight the urge to look away and blame others for its existence in me.
I am accepting that I am vulnerable to being harmed but also have the potential of harming. I am accepting that I can lead and mislead.
I am learning how to accept my flaws without blaming others for their existence. I am learning how to confront that ego that tries to convince me that I am and will always be the victim. I am slowly accepting that sometimes I provoke others to the extent of acting in a way that eventually harms me.
I am slowly accepting that sometimes I am the toxic one in a relationship. I am accepting that sometimes I am just impatient and not mindful of my time. I am accepting that I can be an aggressive woman without insulting others or putting them down.
I am accepting that sometimes, I don’t give as much as I receive.
I am learning how to anticipate the potential of my words before freeing them from my mouth. I am being gentle with myself but also confronting all the angles that I can.
I want to be at my absolute best in every way and from every angle. I am accepting what I am to become what I want to be….because I really can’t become my best self if I carry the false belief that I am already am.